Saturday, 15 February 2025

Wintry night

Verborgene Gefuhle (Ger. buried feelings)sounds right in my mouth. I would like to add attunement. It feels different in my mouth. Sly. Sometimes a deep loneliness, lostness, despair comes to me, and my thoughts glide anxiously to my lost babies. I wonder what preceded that feeling? In dialetical behavioural theory (Marsha Lenihan)a thought precedes a feeling, and a (hidden) belief underlies the thought. Thus I am urged to explore the powerful feeling overcoming me, and I am afraid of falling into a dark hole with an unknown end, somewhere my mind cannot grasp. I have been there before, and there was no thinking out of it. What is my underlying belief- I have betrayed my heart, and by staying on the edge I will never be able to redeem myself? I don't know, but the edge I am occupying at this moment is superficial, brightened by neon lights, not a real sun. I turn instead to what is gratefully the wintry landscape of February, and it feels real enough. I can abide in its starkness and ancient qualities and be accompanied. This is attunement regulating the nervous sytem. The darkness is a stage I can walk on, and I know I can trust it to not be happy. Not my husband, but simple things; the woodstove, root vegetables, cabbage and potatoes, hot broth and woolly socks wrap me. A commemoration to what I have been left with, a sad yearning I had not expected, '...the uniqueness of an individual's experience being key to the changes mourning brings, only in the details can they and their grief be understood.' (p.17) Attig T. (2010). How we grieve: Relearning the world (2nd ed.). Oxford University Press
Winter walk
Night house, oil on layered wood plywood, 18''x22''

Thursday, 13 February 2025

Utopia on the edge

Or 'Utopia in the Margins', oil on found plywood, 17''x20'' I had noticed this abandoned house up on a knoll off Old Lake Cowichan Rd, a former main thoroughfare to Lake Cowichan on Vancouver Island BC, and was smitten. I wanted to paint it. If you look closely you can just barely see it on the ridge, a beacon of something that had had worth. The location is cleared of otherwise dense forest for the hydro lines, and has a great view towards the river south and valley north. To me it looks very welcoming in its wildered surrounds. Its not an overpriced neighbourhood yet, and up close you can see it was a newer house, modest, but now left abandoned to the elements. Plants are creeping in, windows broken onto the carpet, small critters darting and mold growing. They couldn't pay their mortgage? It still has an air of being somewhere someone had chosen as special. Maybe for a family. This somehow makes it more full of dearly held hopes and dreams. I returned to the road and wandered up and down drawing from different spots, wanting a sense of that road that kept going, and the undemanding reprieve in the shelter to the side. Could I get the psycho-emotional swirl that was balanced between relief from the constant pressure of being on the road and the road's counter offer of an escape from lost dreams? What was the best angle to convey what that felt like physically in the body?

Tuesday, 11 February 2025

Nuria's blog post

This blog is from awhile ago, as is the painting, but it is still teaching me things, and clearly it is not always the most recent works that are the most relevant. I could see much that pertained to my PHD in Nuria's analysis; the changing viscosities of the flower, the emerging relationships, and the various scenes that do not resolve themselves. From her words I take some nerve to carry on.

The Uncanny Poetry of Interior Spaces. "Flower," by Stefanie Denz

9/1/2015

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Picture"Flower," oil on panel

    "I look for a subconscious quality in places and people. Figures moving and scenes unfolding in magic realism tones. [...] 
    My work has nostalgia, sometimes interrupted/augmented with use of found materials and overlaid shapes. My key interest is in relationships; individuals with their environment, conscience and or social contexts, whose tensions shape the narrative. [...] 
I am intrigued with how inner proccesses come to light through relationships. I often include found materials in my surfaces to bring my surroundings to the image. Its otherness works unpredictably and gives meaning to the contradictory nature of experiences.” 


A long-established Salt Spring painter and visual artist, Stefanie Denz was born and raised in Duncan, British Columbia. After completing the University of Victoria Fine Arts Program, Denz won a Commonwealth scholarship for an MFA at the University of Auckland, New Zealand. She has worked in many collaborative arts projects and her work has been exhibited in New Zealand, the US, Germany and Canada. Here is a link to her website.

"Strange" is the adjective I've most often heard in connection to Stefanie Denz's paintings, usually followed by other words like "beautiful," "alluring," "seductive," and "surreal." This post is an attempt to explore the complex sense of strangeness and allure that seems to envelop the work of Stefanie Denz through an analysis of one of her most emblematic paintings, "Flower." What follows is intended as a series of reflections suggested by the painting, not an authoritative interpretation of the work. In a way, I am reading the painting as I would a poem or piece of prose, starting with a specifically rich word or feeling and following its movement across the text.  Maybe not the most orthodox way to analyze a work of art, but one that is, I think, close to Denz's own method. Let's see where it takes us.

    The Uncanny: the feeling of unease that arises when something familiar suddenly becomes strange and unfamiliarA blurring of the boundaries between real and dream worlds. An opening, a tear in the fabric of everyday reality that  reveals other, hidden "realities" beyond appearances.

When I look at Stefanie Denz's painting "Flower," the word uncanny immediately comes to mind. What do I find unsettling about this painting? Where does its familiar unfamiliarity lie? It is obvious that I am not looking at a realistic portrayal of a social gathering, even though both setting and people are depicted in a realistic, if somewhat stylized manner. I am looking at something more, something other. In a recent talk at Salt Spring Island's local library, Denz described the painting as a drama between a mother (the woman in the yellow dress) and her son in a (kind of) domestic setting.  Denz is interested in relationships and how these can be rendered on the flat surface of a painting, so her analysis of the scene focused on its realistic and narrative elements. The other figures in the quartet, the sleeping father and the girl crawling towards the door, are secondary characters in this family drama. Perhaps the mother is jealous of the girl (her son's love interest?) and this is why she is leaving the room. Maybe the whole scene is a dream created by the father—the shadowy figure lying on his side at the front of the room. (S. Denz,  "Women in my Paintings: Narratives of Discovery within Covert Spaces," Salt Spring Island Library, August 5, 2015). Denz provided several clues to help guide the viewer into its complexities, but, in the last instance, I felt that the scene was still open to interpretation. I could sense there was something more, an opening, an unfolding on the canvas— an insistent presence that defied explanation. What was it?  What is it? 

That giant flower in the middle of the painting. Why didn't I see it before, opening its petals and enveloping the actors in the drama within its own unfolding space? It seems that I was always already looking at a painting of a flower (the title held the clue all along) ; I just made the conscious decision to focus on the meaning of the story. But I was missing something important. This change in perspective was enough to shift my attention away from the painting's narrative possibilities to its visual aspects. I moved from the seen to the unseen. As Paul Klee once  remarked, the purpose of art is not to  "reproduce the visible" but to "make visible" (The Diaries of Paul Klee, Google Books). I suddenly became aware of other worlds, other realities shimmering beyond the visible world depicted in Denz's domestic scene and materializing, as a flower, into one of those "moments of being" that Virginia Woolf believed reside behind "the cottonwool of daily life," her phrase for the banal trivialities of daily existence (Moments of Being, 72). Or perhaps the flower is a manifestation of something else entirely, something more sinister. Whatever it "is," the flower's refusal to be pinned down, to fit neatly into the scene's dramatic composition, remains its most fascinating if unsettling feature.

"I'm interested in places beyond real time," Denz explained in the introduction to her talk at the library. Interior spaces, places that evoke "psychic time." Is the flower a visual evocation of our unconscious, that realm of buried memories, dreams and secret desires suggestively described by Julia Kristeva as "[a] strange land of borders and otherness" where the self is "ceaselessly constructed and deconstructed"? (Strangers to Ourselves, 191) It would seem so. Psychic time does not follow a linear or chronological pattern. Our mental life, including its unconscious processes, as Freud noted, "is timeless," not subjected to traditional limitations of time and space. This atemporality gives our dreams—the way the unconscious makes itself manifest—their characteristically static and frozen appearance. Not unlike the flower in Denz's painting, I notice. Its centre and one of its petals—or the petal-like shapes extending from it—appear solidified, or in the process of becoming so, as if they were carrying too much "psychic" weight. Though not all the petals share this quality; some are light and airy, while others have a consistency between solid and liquid. Like a pool of oil. Almost viscous. Like a membrane. The petals' malleability, their shifting plasticity suggests that Denz has a more dynamic vision of our psychic world. After all, as Freud and other psychoanalysts (even neurologists) have noted, the unconscious is not a monolithic structure but a dynamic field, a reservoir of energies and drives connected to both mental and bodily processes. Is the flower a physical manifestation of these complex dynamic processes, that is, is it their material representation? Oil on panel, paint on a material surface. These are real, tangible substances. Now I understand the relationship between nostalgia and Denz's use of reclaimed materials in many of her paintings, "my work has nostalgia, sometimes interrupted/augmented with use of found materials and overlaid shapes." A shape can bring us back to the material and visual realities of the canvas, suspending the dramatic action and letting it rest in one emotionally-charged moment. 

Nostalgia resides in the deepest parts of our psyche. Like the unconscious, or the uncanny, the nostalgic feeling manifests itself in the most unexpected of circumstances, as a sudden surge of emotion that feels almost like physical pain (the word nostalgia comes from the Greek algos [pain] and nostos [return]). Not unlike a poetic image, "an emergence ... a flare-up of being in the imagination" (Gaston Bachelard, The Poetics of Space, xviii), nostalgia emerges fully formed, a core of fluctuating emotions. I see now that the flower could also be a manifestation of nostalgia as "a flare-up" on the flat surface of the canvas. Denz has not superimposed extra materials on the painting (see "My Mother," below). Instead, she has set out to create the sense of space filling and growing (becoming three-dimensional) through the careful use of shape and colour. The effect is striking. Past memories, fears, tensions and desires are gathered together to form a flower, the traditional symbol of love in Western culture. Yes, now I see its timeless symbolism coming to the surface and the word that emerges is "connection":

"Only connect! That was the whole of her sermon. 
Only connect the prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, 
And human love will be seen at its height. 
Live in fragments no longer. 
Only connect..."
E. M. Forster, Howards End

 I look at "Flower" again and I sense E. M. Forster's impassioned appeal to connect, to gather, to bring together, but the human psyche is too complex and contradictory to be explained away by a call to universal love, nostalgia, or any other all-embracing concept. And Denz knows this, even as she tries to explain the painting to her audience at the library. She knows that there will always be something in this painting that resists interpretation, an "unruliness" that even the artist cannot tame. "Real art," as Susan Sontag remarks, "has the power to make us nervous." The act of interpretation, with its emphasis on intention and meaning, can be no more than an attempt to "tame" art's fundamental intractability, "Interpretation makes art comfortable, manageable" (Against Interpretation and Other Essays, 8 ). Stefanie Denz's paintings of social and domestic spaces are neither manageable nor comfortable. They refuse to give in to easy explanations— they remain "strange," undomesticated.

"To make strange" is one of the functions of art. Each artist explores this strangeness in a different, highly personal way. Denz's work focuses on the unseen psychic forces that permeate our domestic and social spaces, turning them into the scenes of complicated and mysterious dramas overlaid with strange and shifting shapes. The strangeness of her paintings, their "uncanniness," lies in their capacity to make visible the invisible while still remaining rooted in everyday reality. They are simultaneously familiar and unfamiliar, tangible and intangible, real and dream-like. Unpredictable and changeable, like us. But they are still works of art, grounded in the here-and-now of our present human reality. That is something that no flight of imagination can change. 

Sometimes, art is not here to "mak[e] us more intelligible to ourselves" but to "help[...] us become more curious about how strange we really are” (Maggie Nelson, The Art of Cruelty). Stefanie Denz's art does just that: it eschews easy explanations to focus our attention on just "how strange" "real" human experience can be. And that is why her paintings of interior spaces will continue to seduce us with their alluring colours, shapes and precise compositions, while at the same time displaying their radical strangeness, their "uncanny poetry." 


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"My Mother"