Ideas that don't need to be in my program approval submission. - touching on the foundational need for art therapy; bringing the brain into the body.

I am curious about the experience of being frightened into the moment, or in other words, taking refuge in the present. This is what we try to do in mediation practices, though they do not promote this approach. However its what happens when we are 'living in the moment' of near death experiences. We remember them.

because we remember we consider the memories/event significant, but that might just be a response of the survival mechanism. We treasure memories that help us survive, or we believe have helped us survive for that reason alone. I feel dismissive of such memories. I wonder if this is my inherent self destruction speaking. Or tribalism.

Narratives provide a structure, and lives are lived in the spaces in between and within the particulars of the narrative. What is the nature of that turbulence between “nodes” of events, participants, and  landscapes, and resulting echoes, or hauntings within the particulars as relationships in time and space are felt, and reflected back, and projected into futures(laying out maps)?

I have a distrust of my words and therefore my thinking. I wish to align them to what I know through my eyes and my body. The thoughts and words come after the experience. (Wittgenstein.)

We know things to be true through our bodies. Yet we are often fooled by our bodies too!! We misread our bodies. Marsha Lenihan Dialectical behavioural therapy. 

The group can support us. There is the group body response, and the greater intelligence there. 

I hear people say they have no words, and when they do do not they feel powerless (Jeanette Winterson memoir). 

I do not feel that way, unless I am being dismissed, ie not seen.

Typically we reflect back with words. But we also do so with our bodies. 

So we can be 'heard' through non verbal ways.

The brain is part of the body. Bringing it to that place is the work of sensorimotor art therapy

Geoff Cox' workshop end of November really got me thinking.

Topic was digital imaging, its proliferation as most common imagery out there, used for various tasks, unrelated to how human look at things. This machine way of looking (for mapping, creating engineered and digitized industrial stuff, never mind all the social tracking and marketting tools) is algorithmic and influencing how we see things. Of course as makers of the machine our biases come into play. As it is reflected back at us, we can become more aware of our biases. But I would suggest that the human bias is nedd for us feel comfortable with what we see. Can we influence the machine imagery to be kinder?

There is the business of anthropomorphizing machines, ie; transformers toys, 

and humans have long been mechanized through the industrialization process. How are we being digitized? People changing their appearance so they look like computer generated figures. - Cox's lecture stated that digitizing is image heavy.

Narratives provide a structure, but lives are lived in the spaces in between and within the particulars of the narrative. What is the nature of that turbulence between “nodes” of events, participants, and landscapes, and resulting echoes, or hauntings within the particulars as relationships in time and space are felt, and reflected back, and projected into futures(laying out maps)?

Tell me more about boredom in the experience. I felt bored in a group, because I felt left out.

How is being un connected part of boredom?

Is being unconnected part of being excluded from being creative? 

I think ritual plays a part in reassuring us, to the point of mesmerizing us. It is an antidote  and shield from reality. We are seduced by it, and rely on it to get through our day. I think it needs to be handled a something sacred, and not routine

If things are not defined by the rational and logical, rather by an intuitive and mystical disorganized approach (if that is possible as even chaos has a pattern) can there be possibilities for another kind of understanding that does not show up in anguage, the way we designate in speaking and thinking and might it be called witchy/supernatural?

I would like to consider an intelligence generated by subversive knowledge gathering.

The relationship between erocticism, identity and agency, and my experiences as a mother reflecting and growing my understanding of their meaning.

Thinking about spirituality and what that is if it is based on psychological safety.